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[Jan. 2nd, 2007|07:42 am] |
I'm behind on everything. baby on the way will do ya in if you let it.
the bad news-- tests results. Came back with a 1 in 190 chance of down's syndrome. qualified for second battery of exams to determine the outcome.
mare bad news--test results. Got the first test results the day before I was supposed to certify. You can guess what happened. |
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| long time no see |
[Jul. 20th, 2006|10:42 am] |
LIfe has been interesting, my girlfriend's new car got backed into--and it wasn't pretty, she's been driving a rental for weeks. My co-worker who lost her daughter had stunning revelations into her death. One other co-worker lost her mother and her husband a week apart from each other. meanwhile, my grandmother turns 92 this november "if she makes it" as she keeps telling us.
I've taken up growing plants again. I went out cleaned off my balcony and started about 20 tomato plants. I've got some special cactus growing out there too.
I'm studying for the biggest test of my life. We'll see how it pans out in six months or so. |
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| the latest |
[Mar. 9th, 2006|04:40 am] |
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| | Seal- Dreaming in Metaphors | ] |
Just stopping by, feel like the whole work thing is overrated. Need to land a fat cow, the lottery, a stock rip...something. Been getting hammered at work with stuff that really doens't fall in my arena of things I can emotionally deal with now. I'll be heading back to days and some semblance of normalcy. Yeah it sucks I lose 5000 bux and have to work an extra day. BUt I'll be sleeping at night...after 4 years, fuck this shit..I'd rather sleep. |
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| welcome back |
[Mar. 7th, 2006|04:37 am] |
| [ | music |
| | none--got stolen | ] |
Been a rough period of time away from this LJ. My car got broken into, they smashed my windows, stole my cds, took my ashtray and the change in it. Work has taken several turns. Life in general has been upside down. There's nothing worth committing to these pages at the moment. But I thought I'd at least post. |
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| who died? |
[Jan. 11th, 2006|11:26 pm] |
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| [ | music |
| | Holding Down the Game--Twista | ] |
Ever been to a funeral? You know, the somber feel, the quiet white noise, that aura of pure grief.
Thats where I work, every single day now. Last Friday, they told a department no less than 10 feet from where I sit, that 35 jobs were being outsourced to India. Namely, their whole night crew.
This group that is normally the spirit of humor and amusement for the whole workplace. They just got handed their asses. Everyone in here knew cuts were forthcoming. But no one expected the hammer to fall on this group. Wow, what a sight. |
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| Just when you thought... |
[Dec. 16th, 2005|03:30 am] |
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| | depressed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | gorillaz, Feel Good Inc. | ] |
nope, the book I thought I wouldn't wait for...
it isn't coming. So I'm stuck waiting
California living is just too fast. Someone I know of from high school got killed. High speed crash in downtown LA. Hit everything but the kitchen sink. Wasn't even driving.
The chargers? my hometown team...fucked off the playoffs, loss to miami 23-21. Up next is the 13-0 indianapolis colts. If the chargers lose, they are mathematically out of the playoffs.
Yeah, and you thought that was rain....
it's a bit too yellow, and a bit too warm. |
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| (no subject) |
[Nov. 17th, 2005|08:23 am] |
In memory,
Of the date that never happened, and a mother's dreams unfulfilled.
May you find the niche that eluded you.
1980-2005
Sarah Marie Krouse |
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| On work |
[Nov. 2nd, 2005|04:41 am] |
When told that messing around with co-workers is like screwing family members, the reply was, " Well can I work in West Virginia?"
That's too funny, and yet, too true.
Several of us are painfully aware, yet woefully ignorant, of how much time we spend at work. Work occupies at least 10 hours per day (including travel time) 5 days per week. if you sleep 8 hours there's only 6 left to yourself (not including travel time). What point am I making? The point that in all honesty, we spend more time with assholes by default due to work, than we do others in Real life we care about. It's only fitting, based on the personal nature of working with others, that eventually feelings may develop. What has to be realized, is that these feelings will cause more harm than good if ever acted upon.
It's one thing to date the guy who works next door. He's close, available, and no one can do anything about you screwing him. With a co-worker, they're close, available, you have some personal insight...but the boss will ruin both of your jobs.
Simply put, not worth it. Too many people talk. Just like a family.
Hence my famiy comparison. |
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| outrageous |
[Oct. 25th, 2005|04:10 am] |
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| |  angry | ] |
| [ | music |
| | flagpole sitta | ] |
The defining moments in life are rarely pleasant. As was proven this weekend. Only evil people go out of their way to attempt to cast co-workers trying to help in a bad light. Further, only evil people put your name in the middle of job performance issues.
fuck it...
only WHITE PEOPLE put BLACK PEOPLE at the center of all the fucking problems. I got an embarassing email telling me to "learn how to read english", addressed to me, yet sent to me AND my co-workers. Had I sent that email I'd be fired...what the fuck?!?!
Then it turns out that my displeasure with a co-worker's level of work and expertise has been the topic of discussion during their performance evaluation. These people are seriously fuckin' with me now. I'm just waiting to get laid off, I refuse to leave without getting unemployment. |
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| A good question. |
[Oct. 5th, 2005|05:18 am] |
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| |  pensive | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Walking Away- Craig David | ] |
Someone asked me a really good question the other day. They said “ why do we only want what we can’t have?”
I answered in typical cynicism. But in reality, it set me thinking. There are quite a few things I want but can’t have. And most of the things I want are forbidden fruits of one form or another. To put it simply they are outside of my reach and/or power. I say this quite easily because the only person who wants for nothing is dead.
A close friend saw Meoinc’s picture (all of them are very nice BTW) and asked “How did you let that get away?”
Remember that question about wanting what you can’t have? Good, because that was the answer I gave. Issues that get under your skin while younger, can seem miniscule and even silly when you’re older. Age and wisdom do breed patience, understanding, apathy and indifference. But guess what? By time it’s been figured out, the opportunity has passed. And folks have gone their separate ways.
So, why do we only want what we can’t have? Because we didn’t appreciate what we had when we had it. Because hindsight is 20-20. Because we can’t see the fallout from our decisions. Because time waits for no one. Because we wouldn’t be human otherwise…. |
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